Fantasy

It is not quite often that you go back to your childhood. It takes special moments to teleport you to your childhood. Very recently I had witnessed one such moment. While walking towards the train station after office I saw some school students walking in a line of two. Travelling back in time I remember during my school days when we used to go out for a city visit or excursions we were made to walk in a line of two. We were made to remember our partners so that we could report their missing or help each other if in trouble.

That was 1990s and now it is the 21st century. I know things have changed. The word ‘partner’ has altogether different connotation. Children are now no more kids but young adults. I don’t want to sound like a cribbing old generation and it is just a point to note.

Once again I was teleported to my childhood when one of my colleague asked, ‘what would you like to do if you had a choice’. In simple words I think she wanted to know my dream job or ideal work. When I was a kid I dreamt of being a movie star. I was really inspired by Amitabh Bachhan, a leading Bollywood star. I wanted to be like him. I don’t know when and how that fantasy got washed off from my mind and I got drawn into the real world chores and the ‘rat race’.

Now once again I am made to think about my fantasy. Being grown up I just can’t have a fantasy and do nothing about it. All of a sudden having a fantasy becomes so burdensome. Can I have a fantasy just for the sake of it? No moral compulsion to work towards it. Each morning I get up and I have a different fantasy. A fantasy that is original, honest and beautiful like walking on the moon, being a king or being castaway in an island of ecstasy. 

Surprisingly my rational mind does not let me have one of these ‘real’ fantasies. It forces me to have a fantasy and justify its possibility of happening with rationality and logics. What a misery!!! I guess having an Indian brain has its side effect too.

I have dream of writing a book. A novel that gets published and sold in the leading book stores around the world. I go promoting it, signing autographs on the cover. I am being called an author. Ah! What a fantasy J

Do you have one? A dream that is pure and personal. If you have one, I bet go and make an announcement. Let the world know what you desire and as it is said, ‘the whole world will conspire to help you achieve it’. Cheers.